Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Happy New Year 2014

Happy New Year to those who love me, my friends and my readers (who probably are in one of the first two categories!)  Thank you for the love, support and prayers - couldn't of made it through the rough times and shared the good times in 2014.

I won't miss 2013 for obvious reasons.  The never ending run from cancer.  That's it.

I hope of each of you find what you are seeking - peace, love, health - whatever it may be I wish you every success.

For me no resolutions.  Just a hope and a dream to stop running from the ugly, stupid cancer.  I have already accepted the horrible consequences of the aftermath of the treatments.  Just don't want to play hide-n-seek with cancer anymore.

More later -

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Friday, December 27, 2013

Holidays 2013

Another year almost gone.  Hard to believe.  What a year it has been.  My kiddos have been in PA with their father for Christmas and are due home late tomorrow.  This has been my longest break from them in the last two years.  I miss them and can't wait to see them late tomorrow night when they arrive home.  They are having a blast and that is the most important thing.

On Christmas Eve, I had another laser procedure.  I feel as if I am always on the run from cancer.  CANCER sucks.  It drains me.  The fatigue from the radiation has limited me to being two things/errands on any given day.  It wipes me out.

So early Christmas Eve morning, mom and I set out for the hospital (again).  I had my girl parts lasered.  Not the best way  to spend Christmas Eve.  But Mom was with me and the kids are away.  So it all worked out.  I hurt - I always hurt somewhere.

I was going to sleep one night after the procedure thinking what would happen if I just stopped these procedures?  Would the cancer come back?  I am so sick of them.  Later I received a text from my  11 year old daughter saying she was so glad I was alive and that she wouldn't know what she would do if I wasn't here.  That stopped my questions of continuing the procedures.  I really already knew the answers - there really isn't a choice.  Just keep fighting it.

I hope each of you had a Wonderful Christmas and all the best in the new year!

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