Life etc.

We laid my stepfather to rest on 11/4/13.  It was a beautiful gathering to say our goodbyes for now.  Since he was a Lt. Colonel, he had a beautiful caisson to bring in his casket.  The casket was covered in the United States Flag.

This was followed by the 21 gun salute, the playing of Taps, the folding of the flag, and the presentation of the flag and three bullets (On behalf of the US President signifying his service, duty and honor).  Final goodbyes were said as well as the Lords Prayer.  The group then proceeded to Joe's Crab Shack for lunch and then back to my mother's house for visiting.  Beautiful way to lay a body to rest while his soul is up in heaven - another angel watching over us.

To change subjects, I had my third round of steroid shots in my back.  Pain is gone but both feet are numb.  I am making an appointment with my neurosurgeon to explore the options.  I know the answer will be no due to my poor health.  I know they are the experts.  However, I am a huge fall risk but with two numb feet I want to drive that point home.  Do I risk having a risky surgery and a long time to heal or do I fall and break something else.

On Monday, Nov. 18th, I am going in for biopsies.  I am praying that it is not cancer and that I do not wake up hooked up to a urine bag.  Only time will tell.

And the best news of all, my mom went with my aunt and uncle to Oklahoma to go to the casinos.  I am so happy that she got out of the house and is doing something for herself.  I love her so much and want her to be ok.  She also has been going for morning walks.  I know this will take time - it is so hard losing a person that you loved dearly and even harder when it was your spouse of 32 years.  I cannot find the words to describe it as I am not feeling the same as my mom.  But, I do miss him terribly as do my children.

More later -